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Random rant

#pers

The lurking problem

It’s been quite a while since I wrote my last blog post. While I’ve been always thinking that the reason behind this was the lack of having interesting/advanced subjects to talk about, I came to the realization that it was in fact related to consuming media and constantly “lurking” instead of engaging in things.

It is definitely easier to read a well-written blog post shared on news aggregation websites or skim through an interesting thread as opposed to writing your own or contributing to that thread. I think about how I have nothing to add, how I lack expertise in such advanced topics… etc, but in reality, I’m just holding myself from doing so because it’s easier not to engage, it’s easier to be lazy.

Imperfection

It’s easier to find excuses as for why my next project will suck, not be used by others and so on compared to simply working on it. I think my main problem is losing motivation over time, I need to figure out how to get motivation out of the equation and possibly discipline myself more.

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Oh well, my thoughts are still unclear and messy but I will push them online anyway. It’s something I plan on working on over time not ship only after it’s done!